Friday, November 18, 2011

Look!

when people ask you a certain question, and the emotions all over their face ask you to pick a certain answer .
I consider that a terrible violation of freedom of speech (Freedom of answering),, a terrible cheating.
when our professor are asking one of his questions, you sure can answer correctly without knowing the correct answer, whether it is emotion or the tone associated with his questions, which can give you a quite clear proof to what he want to hear.
I just hate how can they control our mind by this pathetic way, I mean it is worse than they answering their own questions.
Why?,,Clearly they make you think that you picked the answer by yourself , and you didn't , you were a follower , another type of mind slavery.
and the tag-questions are the worse, what is tag questions anyway?, let people tell you a complete answer, a chosen complete one!
what do I want?...Emotionless questions, toneless ones, I want options, to stop, think then pick an answer, No not pick, Create an answer!
Excuse me for my enthusiasm :P!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Unfair to songs

There are some songs that have instantaneous effect on our ears, before completing those you become in love with them, he wasn't one of those songs, he is one of the songs which you discover its beauty  each time you listen, you realize that everything makes sense, that each word is in place, that the tones rhyme with your breathes , that there is a kind of beauty behind all the normality , you feel the song with your soul, not ears , Or eyes.

the trick is that such songs aren't always discovered. Mostly Un-discovered .
they are so normal at first , that you don't bother repeating. and Yea those guys too.

I was lucky, that at this day I didn't have any other song on the shuttle but one, So I kept listening over and over, the same he was the only guy in my life then .
Don't get it wrong, I can now pick the song from million others, It wasn't because it was there.
I mean it wasn't the only reason.Listen, the bottom of the line is you are being unfair to those songs, there are ppl who are worth-knowing, not worth-meeting Only!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Don't say that!

Don't say I'm not in the mood to read, you are just not in the mood to complete this book now, read something else.

Don't say I have many enemies,  Just believe that at the end of your life, you will have a particular number of friends and enemies, and it just happened that you met all enemies first!

Don't say I'm not inspired, just you saying those words is enough reason for inspiration to go away!

Don't say I'm not motivated,just your question about motivation, just your thought about motivation, just you spelling motivation, should be a good start for motivation. for success.
(If are really not motivated , you won't bother talking about motivation!)

Don't say I'm lost, Say that at this particular time, it is advisable to be somewhere else.

Friday, November 11, 2011

11.11.2011

It is 11.11.2011..
So I think that is already enough reason to write, honestly I never got why people are so crazy about dates, I heard that Brad Pitt and Jolie paid a lot so there wedding be on 6.6.2006
Ironic, isn't it?
Maybe on 12.12.2012 , people will kill to do their special things on this particular day. as it is their only chance to meet such a date..
Today is 11.11.2011 and it was a normal day, less than normal actually. heard that Jews were expecting the end of the world today , and I read something about how they will come to Egypt, to the pyramids searching for (Eternity), I can imagine our media promoting this and actually make people believe it, for tourism of course,Not ironic, it is pathetic.
Today is 11.11 and it wasn't the end of the world.
Maybe we will wait to 12.12 and see what happens.?!

And another point, what is all about the end of the world will be 11.11 Or 12.12 , like God needs those dates to prove anything!. 
Why are we so egoist to believe that all dates , all week- day's names, all months are the only months, or are the known months to God,
Those months doesn't mean anything to any creature but human, Remember that all animals and whatever anything will be judged at this day also.
Even to some people (humans) these days don't mean anything. 11.11 doesn't meet 11.11 in Arabic dates, if we only knew our culture we would have never heard about those!
Chinese dates also.
Like we are in front of God who don't find any knowledge to make any other dates (ast8for Allah)!
This is pathetic.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

an Admission

-I replied : At least I know all the bad attitudes within me.
Hold on here, people are not getting it, they are really don't get it, that I can be whatever degree of hypocrisy I want to be, whatever angel I choose, that I can choose whatever  permanent face over my face.
I can't get it, people are asking others to be honest , and they are not ready for this kind of honesty.
At least I show all people all bad attitudes at the beginning , OK I always hear how Aggressive I'm.
how crazy and mad and whatever word explain my impatience and my rush.
At first I didn't mind being famous with that, cause I actually had the courage to change every person's thought.
but numbers are getting bigger, with less patience .
If you know me, I may seem little pushy, and crazy. But actually I'm far away from being crazy!
Define craziness.

Define a crazy girl.
I can't explain to people every single reaction I do for every single action I experience in every single day.
I can't discuss backgrounds of every single decision I made telling them  whatever personal and environmental factors I took this decision in.
I can't convince every single person of my view, my story, as I see it, from my side.. so I smile when someone tells me how crazy and rush I'm.
-For whoever reads this, U should know that I'm not that craziness, and I am not that stupid I accept to be in front of them.
They say that in any country in the world , if the smart admit how smart he is . then he is actually stupid . And I'm saying that if the wise experienced girl confessed how wise and controllable she really is then she is not that wise. so why writing this?! cause I probably not going to meet you any time soon.
-For whoever reads this, U should know that I only have different view, different prospects , different standards.

-For whoever reads this keep in mind , in every single situations , I have my reasons for doing whatever I did or will do.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Thanks



- I know who I'm going to be when I'm 60 or 70, not like granny who loves cats and lives with them, yet I always picture myself alone. with my books , my diaries , my thoughts, my regrets.
I've always had this thought that I'll write a book at this particular age, to tell about everything I had no chance to tell.
To say clearly who matters , and who don't and who never did, to apologize for the mistakes I don't have the courage to apologize for now, or 10 years more.
to thank people , to tell whom I was inspired by,  to tell all my dirty secrets before I leave , to say how I finally found peace, what is my degree of spirituality then.
-I always knew I will write such a book, what tells me such thoughts?, I really don't know, maybe I will find out and write that in the book also.
-But in case I didn't make it to 70, I will start here, now, thanking people.
-Special thanks for my best friend (Bondo2), whom I consider my soul mate , for all the times we laughed , for all the times we were stupid doing stupid things, thinking we were such cool buddies.
for all the times he heard my complaints without boredom, and for all the times he said he is bored .
thanks for the time you listened, I always had a shoulder to lean on, and this thought was my relief.
thanks for introducing me to HuDa and Noor and Sandy , for making me know such productive people.
wish you all the best , all the joy, all the achievements, want you to come back and complete
our friendship from where we stopped.
-Special thanks for my English senior teacher whom I shall consider my model, for all the times you pushed me forward, raising my self-esteem.
for all the times you told me that I'm so going to win Nobel prize, and calling me Aya Zweil (which I hated , it didn't rhyme at all).
for the times you sent me those sms that encouraged me.
You are my best adult, after my grandfather :)
-Special thanks to Sandy :), girl u rock, I mean really you do.
for your honesty, your confidence within me, you are such an activist and I adore that kind of girls I know one thing , that if u were in Cairo , we would be like buddies!
For Both Huda and Noor, for keeping in touch, for letting me check your updates ,for the book's recommendations , for letting me read what you guys write (which is by the way amazing), for letting me experience new culture :) U Rock guys. and I wish we met one day isa