Random irrational must written things

-And I am lost, trying to explain the feeling of the very last un-cooked pop corn in oil, surrounded by cooked ones, 1/10 sec. before it pops!,because I believe that describing that will announce me as an artistic writer!

-And I was convinced that people who love me are the only ones who didn't know her, Sad truth, I loved her, but I wished she just disappear.

Art

I have always been intrigued by the untold, the unseen, whether it is behind the scene, Or not even behind the scene. I am somehow captured by the after-state, the after-state of a singer who sings a really heart-breaking song, when all people emotionally move on after listening to it. How he feels after the song?. Like I read before a closed-box has its glorification, as long as it is closed , anything can be in, a mummy, a map to lost-treasure, secret information of how to split down the world in ten days, money, books , weapon, spider webs, Or nothing at all. That is how I see UN-told, I practically hear the untold say so much without actually telling that. That is how the vagueness is more clear to me than the clearly obvious stuff that every other person wants us to see. I actually observed lately that I barely look to the main actor/actress in a commercial. I search for completely other things, sometimes I miss the aim of the whole commercial by doing this. Some people May call it distraction even dumbness, but I agree to call it an art. The art of seeing/hearing/smelling the UN Or barely exist. So can you please just not talk?, If you talk loudly that is actually interact negatively with how clear I hear you.

a whole new level of my maddness

People break down, but strong people break down strongly, out of all my miserable experiences, I somehow reached the mechanism of corruption, the art of breaking down so miserably hard. It is both funny and pathetic to notice how this mecahnism works , how it can be applied on people, on countries, on empires, the same exact mechanism with a so little deviation ,and it is somehow worth-mentioning that knowing how exactly you will break down, may delay ur corruption, it may give you the chance to put ur pieces together, but it won’t help when you actually break down first rule of corruption: -unless you are an angel, a messenger, you will eventually break down. Second rule of corruption: you will break down the same way ur absoulte adjective tells you to. -Strong people break down strongly. -weak people break down weakily. -great empires break down greatly -tyrant unfair man will actually break down unfairly. which is so fair, third rule of corruption: you will break down for the sake of money, power, beauty, or simply for nothing. fourth rule of corruption: people who break down for the sake of nothing will actually feel nothing during breaking down. and that is so painful! -fifth rule of corruption: people break down independantly , in different ways , and they stand up depending on each other, in different ways. -sixth rule of corruption: it is healty for you to break down compelelty , before starting to stand up. than a semi-break down. So hold ur breath, pick up ur adjective , and wait for ur corruption,

#Experience

No, It is not you who is unforgettable , It is me who don't forget anything, the problem isn't always about forgetting, May be now the problem is having more memories than a peaceful mind can ever hold.
Why can't we get to choose our memories?! Why do we let bitter memories  take part in our mind, to occupy the places of the new good ones??! Why don't we pour them down at the end of the year?! Seriuosly Why?!

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-When I looked him in the eyes, I saw grief, it was deep, it had roots straight to the heart that I started to wonder. Is it something to see?! and for how long it was there?,,,Then I myself replied  Couldn't you differentiate between castles and huts?! Poor him!

-I remember that feeling ,such a confusing one ,Just like falling in love, it is sweet at first, then you start to wonder if you can stop, if you can stop making your other half your whole life. forget about the damn trust thing, I never reached that level of love, maybe it is not even there, and ppl keep acting they reached it because they heard about it, and the first who said that was just a liar, he made the whole feeling up.

Nothing!

-A great deal of nothing goin on within me, it gets wider this nothing thing, something wrong is happening, or at least not in its proper place, disorder is a wrong form too!
-It is dark, engulfing everything it faces, everything falls in this abyss, gets dissolved, changes in to nothing which in turn widen the nothing abyss, memories, feelings, hate, love, all fall equally,with the same speed,transform to the same nothing thing,
Nothing-abysses are the most dangerours, you can't fight what you don't see, you can't fight what you don't hear. You can't end something you have no clue what started it, you are allowed to guess,whether your guessing becomes a series of repeated disappointments,Or continuous pain that turned in to familiarity.
but guessing isn't enough, is it?.No,not when you are dealing with something that is literally taking your life away from you.
All people can live with tragedies, strong people deal with them,and live happily though.but living with a nothing-hole in your soul that can turn anybody into nobody, is not that easy, Is impossible!

Look!

when people ask you a certain question, and the emotions all over their face ask you to pick a certain answer .
I consider that a terrible violation of freedom of speech (Freedom of answering),, a terrible cheating.
when our professor are asking one of his questions, you sure can answer correctly without knowing the correct answer, whether it is emotion or the tone associated with his questions, which can give you a quite clear proof to what he want to hear.
I just hate how can they control our mind by this pathetic way, I mean it is worse than they answering their own questions.
Why?,,Clearly they make you think that you picked the answer by yourself , and you didn't , you were a follower , another type of mind slavery.
and the tag-questions are the worse, what is tag questions anyway?, let people tell you a complete answer, a chosen complete one!
what do I want?...Emotionless questions, toneless ones, I want options, to stop, think then pick an answer, No not pick, Create an answer!
Excuse me for my enthusiasm :P!

Beyond the limitless

-Only one word can hold between its first and last alphabet more than one meaning, by a meaning i don't mean a noun, a verb, an adjective comes from the same exact word.
I mean a word with it accessories , another and so on...
-Broader than this meanings , the results will be probably doubled on the level of different accents , the same exact alphabets with different tones comin out.
see? it is actually broader than what people might understand.
so that was the grammar-vocabulary level, on another level one can hear or read a word, another one with the same age hears the same word, with the same accent, in the same exact sentence.
But they are getting different meanings , according to their knowledge and experiences.
Example: The common one is the word ''LOVE" , when one hears this word he start to think of all the bitterness he went through, to another it is a sign of joy, to a third it is marriage in his culture, responsibility,fallacy.
-the word isn't changing but the link between words is what giving it its meaning. and we will probably getting double the results if the two persons were different ages. with a whole different view and depth of thinking.
Are you getting this? Circles among circles of meanings can be brought to you but still it is limited.
One can't read the word happiness to understand misery, there are some meaning links that are just not there.

-silence, I will have to describe this word either very limited OR limitless.
As it seems to have only one clear meaning in all accents , in all languages, in all kingdoms .Even animal's ones, as I referred to this , I'm also obliged to refer that this word's meaning can't be shallow. It can't be, I'll talk for myself
-When I'm thrilled , it appears all over my face , anyone can see this state all over my glances, all over my tiny movements, then beyond than i remain silent , this pure silence as finally i don't have to talk to feel better.
(like he said : it is only when someone is really happy he doesn't need to sleep, because his reality is finally better than his dreams..OK he said when one is in love but to prove my point.)
-When I'm sad, these moments when you feel that everything is falling apart, i remain silent .
-silence between lovers : is passion.
-silence between a husbad and wife : can be boredom :D
-silence between friends : is understanding.
-silence between enemies : is a postponement for the battle.
I can give you hundreds of meanings but we can dispense with all of that is you really felt all of these.
I'm saying it is just not fair to think that this word has only one meaning in all minds, in all states , this is limitless somehow.
.-so a word is broader than its alphabets as it can bring hundreds of meanings but it still limited , the silence or the non-word isn't superficial ,it is limitless But beside the word and the non -word , there is the meditation
when you meditate, there is no spoken words, no tones comin out, no tongue movement, so when you meditate, there is silence , a fake one.You scream , you ask, your heart talks, you mind wonder, things around you answer , you hear other voices, you speak other languages, you use other frames, other senses, you read codes clearly, you translate thing's silence, you run , you shoot, and you get peace, you reach a settlement between a heart and a mind.
so don't you dare telling me it is actually silence.

-I know your question now, so silence isn't really exist after all?
-I'm telling you yes..it is a fake truth , a truth that isn't really there.

so the last step now arrange the three words as you want let the meditation be the middle, or let it be the last , let it be beyond the limitless, it is an answer you have to make yourself provided that , you must judge yourself according to its position.
Let it be the middle, then you chose it to be limited with a limitless view. now you chose it to be a non-toned spoken word.
If it was the last you chose it to be unspoken-toned word. Am i crazy?..now I can say Yes.