My heart is pushing me to push my mind away from the first itself!
You did that, I am stuck between these two, I keep pushing my mind to delay the truth, to paralyze logic and reason that explain your absence, I keep distorting what is clearly obvious, concealing some other clues, I keep stalling to give you time , enough time to come back.
my heart is pushing me to do so, behind this pure, calm look lies the most vigorous conflict, the most persistent one, your absence did that, you did that!
Internal conflicts -.- They suck =/ !! I like it and I like how the picture is perfectly matching the words
ReplyDeleteI am speechless as if I am tongue-tied. It is kind of logic-emotion conflict that has fallen into the lull of your tranquility and peace of mind. Your palpable feelings really speak for themselves and this inner conflict discloses that you are existing and still alive. Just be optimistic and never let yourself lurk in the shadows of anguish. I know you will step in murmuring, “I am an emblem of optimism.” Sometimes those who smile in daytime relieve themselves by shedding tears at night. You are lucky. You have an awesome friend, Yara Hani, who can pacify you. She seemingly shares the same kind of perplexed sentiments. That is why; I like reading your thoughtful posts every now and then.
ReplyDelete@Yara hani : To get the pic, I typed inner-conflicts , google pic. lool <3 ,
ReplyDelete@M0hamed Ali: U are so right, Yara is an awesome friend, that shares the same kind of perplexed sentiments,but she is stable now, <3. We too are alike in so many things, And I just love that! , thank you so much for following my posts :)
I just want to congratulate you on being close online friend with Yara. No words can describe how glad I was when reading her post about you. You both are special; you lift my spirit and remind me I am not alone in this world. Thanks a billion for you both :)
ReplyDeleteU are not a lone in the world ^_^ , I am glad too! I love us :D
ReplyDelete@Mohamed Ali: You most definitely, are not alone =]! and thank you for finding me worthy of such congratulations =D!
ReplyDelete@Aya Adel: I do the exact same thing when I want to find pictures =D haha, I had this post called writer's block so I googled "writer's block" and went to the images =D LMAO! how creative we are!!
and I couldn't stop laughing at the "she is stable now" part, LOL =D! Well, I guess that is kind of true but perplexed sentiments never really fade away when you're that kind of person who needs to vent about every single thing to get it off your chest. There are those more, or perhaps, less fortunate people who have the blessing/curse of never really thinking too deep. I actually think it's a curse. There was this quote for Anais Nin that I could really relate to (I'm sure you will too): "I think I am a mermaid, Rango. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living". To not delve into your inner self, I believe, is just shallow. If you're only exploring the surface of yourself, that is how you will approach life as well. So, not to sound cocky, but kudos to us =D! For delving in and under where sometimes, it is just too terrifying and messed up. Kudos to us that nevertheless, we delve in deeper each time =]